So he didn't call me all day today.  I sent him a text message first thing this morning just stating that he needed to come and get his things and leave my keys that he had.  I left all the gifts he had given me on the table for him to take.  I honestly didn't expect him to rush over today to get all his stuff but he did.  I can't believe it.  Everyone who has known him well all said that he is just going through a difficult time with his parents.  Give him space and he will come around.  Now those same people are freaked out about how quickly he got this "done".  I am starting to question that maybe there isn't another woman involved afterall.  In most of my past relationships, the ones wherein the feelings did start to end didn't end as abruptly as this one did.  Those that did always had another woman involved.  I dunno...maybe I am looking for something that isn't there but as I said to a friend today, it is hard to move on when you never really got closure.  I have tried very hard in my life to get the answers that I feel my pscyhe needs in order to move on in a healthy way.  Cris and I had always said no matter what we would at least be friends, we would be civil.  He won't even return a damn text message.  So just one day he is here and the next gone....like a death.  Yet, I want to grieve and I can't.  I want to lash out and cry and hurt him like I am hurting right this moment.  More than anything, I miss being called "smooshy face".