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The Letter A
Are you available? As in for dating? A one night stand? No.
What is your age? 41
What annoys you? Way too much to list here.

The Letter B
Do you live in a big house? No - I have a townhouse that is fine for Jeff and I.
When is your birthday? May 3rd

The Letter C
What's your favorite candy? Kit Kat
Who's your crush? I don't have one.
When was the last time you cried? Yesterday. My foot was killing me and I miss work and seeing my friends.

The Letter D
Do you daydream? Absolutely!
What's your favorite kind of dog? Boxer
What day of the week is it? Thursday.

The Letter E
How do you like your eggs? Any way you want to give them to me!
Have you ever been in the emergency room? Yes...let's see.....when my back went out a few weeks before my scheduled spinal fusion. I was in so much pain they had to put me in a coma. Then there was the worst UTI ever. The pain from my ulcer caused me to go in and of course, my numerous foot injuries.
What's the easiest thing ever to do? Lie. (See I am being all deep here).

The Letter F
Have you ever flown in a plane? Yes...even first class a few times (I am special damnit)
Do you use fly swatters? No.
Have you ever used a foghorn? Yes. I high school.

The Letter G
Do you chew gum? Yes but briefly - once the flavor is gone I chuck it.
Are you a giver or a taker? A giver.
Do you like gummy sweets? Only red bears

The Letter H
How are you? Tired, bored.
What's your height? 5'4"
What color is your hair? Currently? This still pathetic blonde/brown thing I have going on. Saturday will be better!

The Letter I
What's your favorite ice cream? Vanilla because you can add so much to it!
Have you ever ice skated? When I was a wee one. Those days are long over.
Do you play an instrument? Nope.

The Letter J
What's your favorite jelly bean? None. I do not like them
Have you ever heard a really hilarious joke? Yes but I am awful at saying them so I don't repeat them.
Do you wear jewellery? Yes. My engagement ring and wedding band but sometimes I will wear a chunky ring in place of the e-ring; earrings and necklaces but only if I am going out.

The Letter K
Do you want kids? 41. Not happening.
Where did you have kindergarten? St. Michael's the Archangel in Chicago

The Letter L
Are you laid back? No. Not at all.
Do you lie? Yes when the truth would hurt too much.
When was your last kiss? When Jeff left for work. It was a damn good one too.

The Letter M
What's your favorite movie? Sense & Sensibility
Do you like mangos? Yep

The Letter N
Do you have a nickname? Kelly Mo
What's your favorite number? Don't have one.
Do you prefer night over day? Day. Totally a morning person.

The Letter O
What's your one wish? Hmmm that my nieces and nephews become successful in life and love. In a it will never come true wish - I want my maternal grandparents bak.
Are you an only child? Nope. Two older sisters.
Do you wish this was over? Eh it's not so bad.

The Letter P
What one fear are you most paranoid about? Losing my job. As the main breadwinner that would financially destroy us.
What are your pet peeves? So many but I think my biggest is when people make plans and cancel them on the same day.
What's a personality trait you look for in people? A great sense of humor. Loyalty.

The Letter Q
What's your favorite quote? I don't really have one.
Does time seem to pass quickly or slowly? Lately? Slowly. The days just go by soooo slow.
Are you quick to judge people? Yep.

The Letter R
Do you think you're always right? Not at all. Jeff would disagree with me.
Do you watch reality tv? Hell yes. It's my guilty pleasure. Name a show and I have probably watched it.
What's a good reason to cry? I enjoy a good cry now and then. I think everyone has their own reasons.

The Letter S
Do you prefer sun or rain? Sun
Do you like snow? Only the first snow or a good snowfall on a Friday night. Having my commute and dealing with the weather blows.
What's your favorite season? Fall.

The Letter T
What time is it? 10:02 pm
What time did you wake up? 8:30 am.
When was the last time you slept in a tent? Never.

The Letter U
Are you wearing underwear? Yes.
Do you prefer underwear or thongs? Both works
Underwear or boxers? boxers.

The Letter V
What's the worst veggie? radishes
Where do you want to go on vacation? Bora Bora
Where was your last vacation to? Door County, Wisconsin

The Letter W
What's your worst habit? Talking over people. I don't mean to do it I just can't help it.
Where do you live? Manhattan, IL

The Letter X
Have you ever had an x-ray? A ton.
Have you seen the x-games? On tv.
Do you own a xylophone? No!

The Letter Y
Do you like the color yellow? My bedroom walls are yellow.
What year were you born in? 1970.
What's one thing you yearn for? To be a size 8.

The Letter Z
What's your zodiac sign? Taurus
Do you believe in the zodiac? I believe that I have the traits of my sign but don't believe much else
What's your favorite zoo animal? I don't like zoos.


I'd like the memory of me to be a happy one, I'd like to leave an afterglow of smiles when life is done.

I'd like to leave an echo whispering softly down the ways, of happy times and laughing times and bright and sunny days

I'd like the tears of those who grieve to dry before the sun, of happy memories that I leave when life is done.

This was the poem on the mass card for Marciea Adkins. Marci was killed because a 16 year old boy decided to smoke pot, drink until he could barely see and thought it was a really awesome idea to steal a Range Rover and try to escape from the police.

Marciea was a dispatcher for the Chicago Police Department. Her husband is a Chicago Firefighter. The outpouring of love and support at the visitation today was amazing. The line was down the main aisle of the church, down the steps, out the door and down to the corner of the block. The fire department had a truck out front passing out food and beverages to people waiting in the heat to say their goodbyes.

Maureen was so thrilled to see so many coworkers lining up to say their goodbyes to her sister and to give Maureen a hug. She seemed to be holding it all together, until her boyfriend came to help her greet us. Maureen looked over at her sisters casket and said "I can't believe God would take you! Why would he take you?" At this point, she hunched over and sobbed.

As I was in line to pay my respects at the casket, I found it remarkable that Marci's husband was standing there. Not only saying hello to everyone but actually shaking hands, greeting everyone with a smile and even sharing some stores of Marci to each and every person who was there.

He told me that Marci always fought for everyone, always took their weight upon her shoulders. He told me "Now it's my turn to fight for her. My turn to make sure that her voice is heard. He took away my future. I will take away his."

I couldn't respond to that. I can't take away his pain or his grief. All I could do was hug a man I just met and hoped that he knew that in my own way, I would fight for Marci too.

Jeff's Job

I am sorry - I had thought I mentioned this in a previous post.

Jeff had a job interview right before the wedding, as in, I believe, it was that Thursday prior? He pretty much was handed the job. He found out about it on Monday. He applied at 8:00 am on line for it. At 10:00 am they called him to schedule a phone interview that evening. At 8:00 am the next morning they had scheduled a face-to-face interview for Thursday and on Thursday they told him he would need to take a drug test but otherwise they would contact him after the holiday for his start date.

He didn't want to tell anyone because he felt it was jinxing it. I told as many people as I could!

It's another carpet cleaning gig. This time for Sears Home Carpeting. So we get a discount at Sears - which will come in handy because I want a new stove. Unfortunately he will have to work Saturdays again (which blows) and his hours suck. We will have to get another car as soon as we can because he has to be at the office by 6:00 a.m. I don't catch the train until 6:30. So it's great that he has a job. I am thrilled for him but I will miss him too.

The foot

The doctor said that the bone I broke is the most fragile and one of the most important bones in the foot. It connects to all the other bones up the leg so I did an awesome job. Unfortunately she said the x-rays the hospital took are worthless so she had to take more and was swamped today so will get back to me tonight or tomorrow to tell me what she sees. Currently, she has me in the mother of all boots (seriously I look like a spaceman) to try and stablize the foot. She is not thrilled with sending me back to work but she understands the situation. So I have to wear the boot at all times (even when at home just laying around) and in two weeks, if there is no change, I will have to be on bed rest for 6 to 8 weeks.

Needless to say, I am pretty sad...I have been crying since I left the office. I honestly cannot afford to be on short-term disability. Thank God Jeff starts his new job on the 18th but that won't help us much. I am frustrated that I cannot work out. I am frustrated that this will affect our finances and most of all, I just feel like an asshole for having to do all this yet again.
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Meme - because I am a follower and everyone is doing it :)

Kelly. Not spelled Kelley or Kellie. Whenever I go anywhere I always get asked this and it's frustrating. I want to say "I am old so I spell it the old way!"

02. AGE
41. See I am old.

Manhattan, IL - about 45 minutes southwest of Chicago.

Legal Assistant. I am actually much more of a paralegal but my firm is managed by doofuses.

I met Jeff a few years ago on E-Harmony. If you haven't heard we were married on June 25th (ha ha ha). Jeff is probably the nicest, sweetest, most loving man I have ever met.

06. KIDS?
Jeff has a 17 year old son. Enough said about that. I spoil all my nieces and nephews. They are my children.

I have two older sisters. Patty is the oldest. She is currently planning her civil union to June, her partner of the past 13 or so years. Over the holiday weekend I was asked to be her Matron of Honor! I could not be more happy.

Kim is married to mark and they have three kids.

08. PETS
Two cats. Tatiana, whom I adopted about 7 years ago is my baby. She has gotten me through a ton of rough times. Star is Jeff's cat. He is my troubled cat. He was shipped around a lot before Jeff finally took him in and even then, his home life wasn't great. Jeff worked a ton of hours and wasn't home a lot and Star did whatever he wanted. I have yet to break him of nasty habits.

09. LIST THE 3-5 BIGGEST THINGS GOING ON IN YOUR LIFE (in no particular order)

1. My foot was broken at the reception so right now that is the biggest focus. Will I need surgery and if so, what will take place with that.

2. My aunt is back in the hospital yet again. Turns out the rehab center she was transferred to (against our wishes or knowledge) was a disaster so now I get to spend my weekend trying to find an alternative. It is never ending. I feel guilty because she is such a terrible person but I loved my uncle so very very much that I will go to the end of the earth to make her happy, just to please him (hoping he is looking down and smiling).

3. Thank you cards, crafting and scrapbooking all the wedding stuff.

My dad married my mom for her money. No joke. He was from the wrong side of the tracks and thought she had rich parents. Just turned out they worked a ton and spoiled her and my uncles rotten ha ha. He is an alcoholic and when he was younger, he was a raging asshole. Never to me but my sisters remember some bad moments. He mellowed and eventually quit the heavy drinking and now only has a few. He is a different person since my sister's kids were born. I have always been Daddy's little girl. He is my strongest supporter and probably one of the smartest people I know, even though he never finished high school.

My mom is, well, she is my mom! She will give you the shirt off her back but she will remind you she did it for the rest of your life! She is deaf and has a speech impediment which makes it difficult for people outside the family to understand her. I feel bad for her because I can't imagine what that is like. Her hearing is the reason my whole family is so loud!!!

Nearby? Linda and Cindy. They have known me since high school and have seen me at my best and my worst and still love me. I know I can ALWAYS count on them to be there for me and help me through anything.

I have some LJ friends who are also amazing people and I know if we all lived closer we would spend time together. I still plan on meeting them all one day!

12. MISC:
Honestly now that I don't have a wedding to plan there isn't much going on! I plan on fixing up my house. Decorating was put on hold because the extra money was all going to the wedding. I also want to go on an amazing trip next year.

Meme stolen from everyone

Because I am a follower!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
4:00 a.m.

2. Diamonds or pearls?

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Harry Potter (Deathly Hallows Part 1)

4. What's your favorite TV show?

5. What did you have for breakfast this morning?
yogurt and a banana

6. What's your favorite cuisine?

7. What foods do you dislike?
Anything with jelly - ugggh jelly sucks

8. What is your favorite chip flavor?
Plain and then bring on the dips baby!

9. What's your favorite CD at the moment?
Uhhhh CD? LOL

10. What kind of car do you drive?
2009 Dodge Caliber

11. Favorite sandwich?
Ham on rye.

12. What characteristics do you despise?
There are so many but I think I had arrogance the most.

13. What is your favorite type of clothing?
This all depends but right now I would have to go with my jeggings and this awesome sweater that makes my boobs look amazing. Otherwise my yoga pants!

14. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would it be?
Ireland and Scotland

15. What color is your bathroom?
Downstairs is celery, the upstairs guest is purple and the master suite is yellow

16. Favorite brand of clothing?
I am fat we don't have brands just Lane Bryant ha ha ha.

17. Where would you retire to?
Chicago is home always!

18. Favorite time of the day?

19. What was your most memorable birthday?
21st. My party was spectacular!

20. Where were you born?
South Chicago Hospital, Chicago, IL

21. Favorite sport to watch?

22. Who do you least expect to send this back to you?

23. Person you expect to send it back first?

24. What fabric detergent do you use?
Whatever is on sale.

25. Were you named after anyone?
A character on Peyton Place (a soap opera that my mom loved). My middle name is from my godmother.

26. Do you wish on stars?
Yes - often

27. When did you last cry?
About 10 minutes ago when I got the email regarding Kathy's memorial service.

28. Do you like your handwriting?
Catholic nuns and rulers for the win!

29. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you?
I try to be a good friend, although I know I don't contact people enough but yes, I think I would be.

30. Are you a daredevil?
Depends on the situation.

31. Do looks matter?
To a certain extent.

32. How do you release anger?
I used to freak out and go on a rampage but therapy changed that. Now I work out or walk away and right my feelings on a sheet of paper until I have a chance to calm down.

34. What were your favorite toys as a child?
Little People

35. What class in High School was totally useless?
Sociology - I have no idea what I learned.

37 Favorite movies?
Sense & Sensibility, Gone with the Wind, Steel Magnolias, Fried Green Tomatoes

38. What are your nicknames?
At work they call me K-Mac

39. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

40. Do you think that you are strong?
No - not at all

41. What's your favorite ice cream flavor?
Vanilla - because you can top it with anything!

42. What are your favorite colors?
Pink, red, purple

43. What is your least favorite thing about yourself?
I am too emotional

44. Who do you miss the most?
My maternal grandmother...every freaking day.

45. Do you want everyone you sent this to, to send it back to you?

46 What color pants are you wearing?
purple, pink and white

47. Last thing you ate?
a taco with a cup of brown rice on the side

48. Favorite song?
I don't really have one.

49. If you were a CRAYON what color would you be? Red-Orange

50. Last person you talked to on the phone?

51. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

52. Favorite drink?
Vodka and cranberry juice

53. Do you wear contacts?

54. Favorite day of the year?

55. Endings happy or sad?

56. Winter/summer?
What Gena said - I love fall. Although in Chicago we now have what we consider sprinster because it is so damn cold for April.

57. Hugs OR Kisses?

58. What is Your Favorite Dessert?

59. What Book(s) are you reading?
Currently nothing because my Kindle is not working and I have no new books/

60. What is on your mouse pad?
nothing - it's plain

61. What Did You Watch Last night on TV?

62. Favorite Smells?
A bonfire

63. Stones or Beatles?

64. What's the furthest you've been from home?
The Carribean

Because I don't want to work just yet - here is another about me thing!

A. Age: 40. I am old.

B. Bed size: Queen and I refuse to get a larger bed as I curl up in a ball right on the edge anyway.

C. Chore you hate: Putting away laundry.

D. Dogs: I would LOVE to have a dog. Unfortunately my work schedule doesn't allow it.

E. Essential start to your day: Checking email and Facebook.

F. Favorite color: pink

G. Gold or silver: I am actually a silver fan but Jeff purchased my engagement ring in gold so I have been trying to buy items that will match that. Saturday my friend Cindy told me what she does (her original ring is gold). She purchased a cubic wedding ring set in silver so when she wants to wear her silver jewelry, she puts that ring on so that is my future plan (that was random and didn't really have anything to do with the question - I just wanted to share ha ha ha.)

H. Height: 5'4"

I. Instruments you play: I such because I never learned how to play an instrument. I have zero talent.

J. Job title: Depends who you talk to. Andy refers to me as the Trademark Paralegal. Kathryn and Dov call me the Office Goddess but the firm calls me a legal secretary.

K. Kids: I will have a stepson but I don't really refer to Alex as same. Other than that, I have two wonderful cats who I love to death and I have my sister's kids.

L. Live: Manhattan, IL - a southwest burb of Chicago

M. Mom’s name: Kathleen

N. Nicknames: I don't have any.

O. Overnight hospital stays: Yes. lamenectomy, discectomy at the Mayo Clinic and subsequent stays due to infection at the surgical site. Spinal fusion and there was a time when I passed out at work, banged up my face and head badly and the docs kept me there for a few days for observation.

P. Pet peeve: I have way too many to list here but I think my biggest pet peeve is the lack of proper train ettiquette from people who take the train here in the city. It's hard to explain but they suck.

Q. Quote from a movie: "I've wasted thousands of kisses on you. Kisses I thought were special because of your goodness and your music and your light. Shame on me for kissing you with my eyes closed so tight."

R. Right or left handed: right

S. Siblings: 2 older sisters, Patty and Kim

T. Time you wake up: 5:00 a.m.

U. Underwear: When I was younger I always wore the lacey stuff or g-strings. Now I am all about grannie panties and I don't care if people judge me.

V. Vegetables you dislike: brussel sprouts.

W. What makes you run late: Jeff - who does not know how to be ready on time for ANYTHING.

X. X-Rays you’ve had: dental, spinal, foot, head.

Y. Yummy food you make: I make great cakes.

Z. Zoo: I am not a huge fan of the zoo.

Hey here is some more useless information about me!

1. What is the last album you listened all the way through in order? Ummmmmm hmmmmm probably the Wicked soundtrack

2. What random noise do you love? Tatiana's purring.

3. How do you commute to work? Jeff drives me to the train, I hop on said train and walk the few blocks to my building.

4. What do you want to be when you grow up? Since I am 40 I can't really answer this.

5. What laundry detergent do you use? Whatever is on sale.

6. How set in your ways are you? I hate change and with my Type A personality I don't deviate BUT if I research and get information on something I am willing to change.

7. What do you hope this year brings that was severely lacking last year? A raise.

8. What do you wish you had more time/energy to do? I wish I had more time at night to work out. If I could, I would spend more time at the gym during the week.

9. What skill do you wish you had? I wish I played an instrument.

10. Are you comfortable with who you are? Other than losing weight, yes actually, I think I am pretty awesome.

Last but not least:
11. What else is in the room with you? Ummm I am in the office which is currently acting as Wedding Central and since I recently took on cardmaking, craft crap is everywhere.

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I haven't been feeling well lately. Just not feeling 100%. The weather in Chicago has been pretty crappy lately, so I haven't been able to do much walking and Jeff and I have been so super busy that eating right and getting some exercise has been pretty much non-existent. This has made me feel like crap physically and emotionally. I do not like it. So, I investigated some health clubs in the area. Even though money is tight with Jeff not working, I NEED to have a health club that has a pool. I hate working out but the last time I lost a significant amount of weight, I did it with three day a week visits to the gym with walking the track and swimming with water weights. Two nights a week I did the machines (yuck). It all worked out in the end and I lost the weight. So, this weekend Jeff and I will be joining a club I found. We will go work out directly after I get picked up from the train after work, so this way, I can't put my butt on the couch and then be too tired to go. Even though we have been super busy, we also have to make an effort to get there on the weekends. Knowing that we now have finances tied into it will definitely have me going to the gym, as I don't want to see the investment go down the sink. I hate working out but I know I have to do it.

Speaking of my health, last month my dermatologist put me on a VERY INTENSE drug for my the acne I was experiencing. I took it for about a week and started getting the worse stomach pains. They were unbearable. I called my GP about it and she was pissed off that the dermatologist even gave me the drug he did. She took me off of it and gave me some remedies to fix the ache in my stomach. Everything was fine...until this past weekend.

I had the same problem. It started Saturday afternoon but I chalked it up to us running around like crazy that day. By Sunday afternoon it was pretty damn intense. By Monday morning, I felt like I was giving birth to an alien life form. SO MUCH PAIN. I called my GP and left work early. I tried to do all the things my GP told me about last month but nothing was working. On Monday night, Jeff and I decided the best course was the ER. So I was there until 2:00 a.m. They tried a few different meds on me, ran some blood tests to make sure there was nothing life threatening going on and sent me home. I got 2.5 hours of sleep and came into work the next day. Needless to say, I was still in pain and pretty miserable. What could be the cause? Well the ER attending said that he believes it is a combination. He thinks the main cause is damage to my stomach lining by the drug from last month (thanks so much to my dermatologist). He also believes I have an ulcer and GERD. Fabulous!

So Saturday I have an appointment with a gastroneurologist who will probably schedule an endoscopy to see what's wrong. My GP is concerned about the damage to my stomach lining and she is hoping there isn't any bleeding - because of course that will affect my anemia WHICH MIGHT EXPLAIN why I am even more tired than usual. BLAH.

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